Yesterday, I was asking my friend, “Why do good people
suffer and bad people win?”
To which he answered, “God will never give you more than you
I pondered upon that thought for a long time and came to a
solution. I like to compare and I admit, it’s a terrible disease that can kill
you slowly. If you don’t choose to count your blessings but choose to compare
and count other people’s blessings, you will not survive.
I’m still pretty bad at it but I’m trying. Back to the point
– sometimes, I’m really jealous of friends that have it all good. Everything is
settled for them, all they have to do is just say yes or no and choose to
follow or not. Or people who don’t have to try hard to get what they want.
Basically, I’m just jealous.
Often, I would question God, “Why?” when it comes to hard
times. I would always wonder why would God put me in such a difficult position?
Why can’t He give me an easy way out? Why can’t He just make my life easier?
Why are there so many obstacles in order to find the correct route? Why do
others have it better? They don’t even have to try hard in order to succeed.
Then I realized. God will never give you more than you can
handle. I know those people. I know how weak they are. I’m not implying that I’m
like super strong or whatsoever but I know that I am stronger than them –
So thank you God, for all those difficult paths, for all
those failed works, for all those wrong people in my life, for all those times
I was lost, for all the nights I felt like I was going to give up but I didn’t…
I truly feel stronger than the person I was 2 years ago.
I hope I do not disappoint my parents. I trust in You that
everything I choose to do now leads to a better future not only for myself, but
for the loved ones around me.
People my age have started picking out songs for their weddings in the future and I have always wondered what's mine...because I just don't have that particular feeling that makes me go 'OH YEP. THAT'S THE SONG.'
But I found that feeling and I can tell you - it feels like love at first hear OR NOTE. HAHAHA. Ok la, sounds lame but you get my point.
It's so beautiful. I literally feel my heart aching from just listening to the lyrics.
This should be one of my wedding songs. Yup. The groom spot is still empty though. It's okay. I'm only twenty. 'Cause all of me Loves all of you Love your curves and all your edges All your perfect imperfections Give your all to me I'll give my all to you
‘It’s so funny how when I’m with this stupid prick that I
feel like I could finally stop being so angry all the time. It’s just tired.
It’s like having to go through a phase of being angry till your head hurts and
you just get tired of being angry. You just want to be happy. And he makes me
feel happy. This stupid prick makes me feel happy. Is this how it’s supposed to